This week has been a super lonely one. I don’t know if it’s because I’m working now so my whole schedule is jam packed, and I have less time to spend with friends or I’m just a loser. 

I’m so tired all the time, and I’ve actually been getting a good amount of sleep. So I don’t know what the deal is…

My grades this semester are not turning out how I wanted them to. And the frustrating part is that I feel like I’m working really hard. I just need to come to the realization that I suck at school. Or I have to help my Dad come to that realization, because he probably cares more that I do. 

I really really hate how I’ve been looking lately. I’ve never been one to love my looks but I’ve really been hating them lately. It probably has a lot to do with the fact that my hair is incredibly hard to manage. I really need a change. 

People have been getting on my nerves lately. All kinds of people, even the people I love. I’ve also been super short tempered lately, which is not good, but I really can’t help it. 

I’m not sure if I’m excited for my birthday or not. I always get anxious because I feel like people are going to forget and I get my feelings hurt way too easily by things like that. 

That was a bit long, I guess I just have lots on my mind. :/

I feel incredibly crummy right now and I hate it. I just want to lie in bed and cry for days but I know that would not be normal. I wish I had someone to run away with, because that’s all I’ve wanted to do for awhile now. Just pack up and go so far away where no one knows me and where I could start all over. 

It truly breaks my heart that there is literally nothing in my life that is currently making me happy. I just want to honestly smile again for no reason but the fact that I’m content. Oh how I hope that things drastically change in my life for the better. I guess for now all I can do is wait.